I try to live

with out you, and try to be happy. I try to smile, and let you go in style. Yet, every time I let my mind wander, It always turns to you.

:|

I am so confused. I hate being confused. Usually I have it all worked out in my head. What the hell is wrong with me.

Fresh start!

It's been about a week since I have spoken to Chad. Of course he is still trying, but I feel so much better not having to worry about anything. I feel relieved. and happy. I seriously never thought I could feel this good without him by my side. and of course I do miss him. I miss him alot. But thats normal. I will be okay soon.

Me and Kaleigh have gotten super close again. I love her. Since 6th grade she has always had my back, and now we work together so I get to see her all the time!

Me and Anna are becoming the best of friends. thats awesome, cause she is awesome.

I am rearranging my room. It is going to look so cool when i'm finished. I think I want to get rid of my bed frame, and just have my mattress on the floor. i think it will look prettty cool.