i love

dawn and kaleigh more than anything. those are my girls. i love you guys! :]

what i want in a guy!

smart, caring, attractive, doesnt do hard drugs, has a job, wants to succeed in life, makes me want to be a better person, helps me understand life on a different level, thinks im the only girl in the world that he needs, holds my hand no matter what, someone that i can make eye contact with, someone who speaks to me, someone that i can have instant connection with.

if your out there, i am ready for you.

understand that i have NEVER been in a good relationship before. and that im hurt and confused. help me get my guard down. help me understand that not every guy is going to hurt me intentionally.

i just need a man. im tired of boys.

why am i happy?

i have kickass friends who would do anything for me.

because i get hit on by random people everyday and its a confidence booster.

because i get 20 people a day tell me i look like taylor swift, which is awesome.

because i have storm. even though she is the devil.

because i know i have not hit rock bottom, and that i can start over.

because i still have chad.

because my mom loves me and wants to make me feel happy and better.

life is good. things will be okay. im ready.

Old photos!

I miss highschool.
Prom

I miss being so close.

my dad took me shootin! ha

never ever again.

haha

this is what i grew up around! ahahh oh lord.

germany!

florida with my sweet thang.

i miss my old life.

We are still friends.

and i love this picture that brittnye took of us. we are still hanging out and getting to know eachother again, on a different level. im very content right now. i like being single, for the first time in my life. kml, dont be mad, we are not together. we are taking it day by day.

wow, i didnt think it would be this easy.

im living life. im having fun. everyday all day. seriously. ive never felt so free. but thats all going to end tmrw, maybe. im going to live with my mom. ha! thats probably going to last a night. i just cant stay at my moms, its boring. and i like to be around people constantly.


i dont know what to say about me and chad. we are still hanging out. alot. i still love the crazy asshole. what we had was real, no matter what anyone says, it was real. its the hardest thing in the world to not think of him.

i just want to be single right now though. i want to enjoy the confidence i have right now. im feeling great. and i dont want that to end.

im going to put in applications at day cares! :] perfect job.

i have been hanging out with a very nice guy. btw.

Why is it so hard?!

to get over you. i tell myself your no good. but yet, your always on my mind. it doesnt help when you are trying everything to get me back.

i dont know what i want to do. i just know, that even seeing you makes me feel like everything is right in the world. and i dont want to lose that feeling.


all i need is to dive into some nice cold water. i'd feel alot better.

:]lets go swimmming.

:]

im having fun.

hanging out with everyone that loves me makes me feel great. hung out with chad yesterday. i think im seeing him today too.

whatev. i can be friends!

So,

im going to dawns. if you want to see me, or whatever just text me.

im trying to clear my brain. so dont be negative. i need pure positivity.